I Started a Blog??!!
Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.— Oscar Wilde.
Welcome to my blog! I am a mother, a sister, an aunt, a friend, a granddaughter and most importantly…..I am ME! My name is Melanie and I am the mother of two children who I absolutely love, even when they frustrate the heck out of me. I have been a single mother for 16 years. A few years ago, I was told that I have PTSD from trauma that I have endured for most of my life as well as depression and anxiety. When I was informed about the PTSD, I was taken aback as I didn’t honestly realize that it could happen to me until my therapist began to list off everything I had told her that had happened to me, beginning with the age of 5 or 6 years of age and had continued into my 30s. I am now 40 years old and still have not come to the point in my life where I am not controlled by my past and the fears it has instilled in me.
So why a blog?
I had thought about writing a blog for many, many years but never did for the simple reason that “everyone was doing it”. Seems like the right answer, yes? No!! I should have started years ago when I had people encouraging me but I was scared to. Scared of rejection, of fear, of looking like a fool, of not having anyone read anything I wrote. Now here I am many years later doing what “those people” tried to encourage me to do, trying not to let those same fears rule over me. I can pretend that there isn’t a voice inside of me that is trying to beat me down, telling me that I won’t succeed. That I won’t be able to reach anyone and that everything I write or talk about is nonsense and that no one cares……but I can’t tell you that. For tonight, I am ignoring that voice and hoping that as time goes on the voice will become quieter and quieter until it eventually disappears and a new voice is heard. A voice of encouragement, of pride, of knowing that I reached even one person and was able to give them courage or support in any part of their life.
This blog will be my story. My life. My words. My thoughts. I want to share with you everything that I can and that I am able. It could be the ramblings of a frustrated mother as her kid doesn’t empty the dishwasher because they didn’t realize it needed to be emptied or it could be something about my past and lessons that I have learnt from it or am still trying to learn. I may talk about the newest recipe that I made or how the icy roads make me frustrated as everyone drives at a snails pace and I am running late for work. I hope to take this blog a day at a time and see what develops and to see where it leads me. Please be patient as I learn my way around this new path and please feel free to leave comments or questions for me. Let’s get this thing started!!